It’s just an ugly name, too ethnic for my liking too. Nobody ever pronounces it properly, or I’m constantly correcting or spelling out my name. It’s a pain in the ass. My middle name has the exact same issue.
I just wish I had a neutral and easy name if not a cool one. I made it a point to give my kid a good name because of it. I was named after parent’s relatives who I never knew. I just hate my name.
Many “bad words” have roots in other countries or cultures and are a half translation, this is why many words are labeled bad or rude, when they really mean “that’s an immigrant word” or foreigner slang.