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Cake day: July 7th, 2023

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  • Let’s see, there was the one I just started anti-depressants and they had unexpected side effects preventing me from getting hard. It was a rather poor sexual experience.

    There was the other, which is way more fun, where I befriended a women I was working with. She was lesbian and had a kid. Her last sexual experience with a man was when she was raped. Anyway, she invites me over and after a couple drinks we settle in to watch a movie and start fooling around. I go down on her for a while and then she has me move towards normal sex. Literally ten seconds after I enter her, she excuses herself and goes to the bathroom to throw up. She thought she was going to be okay with it, but had more of a reaction than she expected.

    Eventually, she comes back out and apologizes. I didn’t mind though, we ended up just cuddling watching the movie until we fell asleep. 10/10, would sleep with a lesbian again.

    We stayed friends for a while, I introduced her to one of my other friends and she dated them for a while. We hooked up a second time a few years later.

    There was another one that didn’t understand her kinks or communication yet. She would say things to try and get me jealous. She would also constantly say no or stop during sex and then get mad or frustrated when I would stop. It ended up just being a little awkward, but we were young and dumb. Too young to understand discussing what she wanted before starting sex and agreeing on a safe word.










  • I’ve had those depressive thoughts, I’ve fought self harm and depression. I have mostly gotten past it and during the period, I don’t think I ever saw light at the end of the tunnel.

    I’m glad she is able to get the relief she needs. I couldn’t imagine putting someone through the turmoil that I had during my lowest points. It’s sad, but it’s okay for things to be sad in life. I’m glad she is able to have frank discussions on her desires and her wellbeing. It’s going to be hard for her partner, friends, and family, but it would be so much worse and so traumatic if she didn’t have help or had to hide the desires until she took her own life regardless of the laws.


  • Almost every night now.

    I used to never dream but I would go to bed with the TV on. I wanted to switch to falling asleep to music. At some point I realized I would have nightmares whenever I slept without either. It was like my brain couldn’t handle the lack of external stimuli.

    But I wanted to dream more, so I started going to bed without it more and more often. Eventually those nightmares turned to dreams as I pushed through it. It was fantastical. Almost like hearing music for the first time after being deaf. It was a whole new world and I can’t get enough.







  • It was scary. But my mortgage itself isnt too bad. The amortization schedule was scarier, as the first several years you’re almost paying just interest. And you get to see just how much it costs over the total life of the loan.

    But I like my house, I feel a sense of pride and accomplishment. I can enjoy doing the fixes myself, and cry when things are so expensive to repair. There are so many things I want to do, but can’t afford to at the moment.

    I am really enjoying getting my yard they way I want. And it’s even nicer to have a place that my girlfriend and her daughter can move in.

    The house has appreciated 10% in the last two years. And as inflation keeps happening, it devalues the loan. The money I owe is worth less and less and the property I own is worth more and more. At least in general, that’s how it should work.

    Property taxes are pricey, but I’m happy with paying them for what I get in the city and neighborhood I’m in.




  • Memes arent actually from the Internet, only this particular form of text on a picture meme is. And that particular style has historical precursors in actual physical newspapers.

    A good way to think of them is a shared in-joke repeated. If you and your friends keep making the same joke, that’s a meme. Yo mama jokes are a meme.

    The Wilhelm scream in films is a meme. It’s often used as a joke by sound designers and done so repeatedly by practically everyone in the industry.