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  • Whenever I see a homeless person I give them a lot of money

  • I don’t say no, I say yes and put my discomfort for anything aside, other people’s wants are more important than my feelings

  • I’m very agreeable

  • I do odd jobs for people, even those who don’t like me, and even if I’m exhausted

  • I feel really guilty if I mess up even slightly on something and I’ll apologise and let them know I am sorry for messing up

  • Constantly battling my instincts and my entire personality feels like it’s being filtered

I still feel bad and like it’s all not enough. It’s as if something’s missing, but I don’t know what that something is. Is this normal? Sometimes I think “fuck it, I’m bad, probably was born bad, why don’t I do other bad things as well since that’s what everyone expects of me now” but I push those intrusive thoughts aside.

  • Grimtuck@lemmy.world
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    11 hours ago

    I called the fire brigade when I was about 4 years old. I thought it was a toy phone so I dialed 999 (I’m in the UK) and said there was a fire in a guest I could see from my window. I was mortified when the fire brigade arrived at the house asking if anyone had called as they’d been looking fit a guest fire in the area.

    I think I evened it all out when I found smoke in our living room at age 6 and alerted my parents. I thought they were cooking sausages but a log had rolled out onto the carpet and the fire officer said I probably saved the house.

    I felt guilty about the first case for decades. B but you have to forgive yourself. Also, out doesn’t matter what you did. Your parents divorce is not your responsibility. Whether what you did triggered it or not, their relationship clearly wasn’t strong if it broke so easily and it probably works have before for other reasons anyway.