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  • Whenever I see a homeless person I give them a lot of money

  • I don’t say no, I say yes and put my discomfort for anything aside, other people’s wants are more important than my feelings

  • I’m very agreeable

  • I do odd jobs for people, even those who don’t like me, and even if I’m exhausted

  • I feel really guilty if I mess up even slightly on something and I’ll apologise and let them know I am sorry for messing up

  • Constantly battling my instincts and my entire personality feels like it’s being filtered

I still feel bad and like it’s all not enough. It’s as if something’s missing, but I don’t know what that something is. Is this normal? Sometimes I think “fuck it, I’m bad, probably was born bad, why don’t I do other bad things as well since that’s what everyone expects of me now” but I push those intrusive thoughts aside.

  • WeeSheep@lemmy.world
    18·
    10 hours ago

    Pretty much everything we do affects others, that’s unavailable. But you were 6. You weren’t old enough/mature enough to grasp the full concept of what you were doing, otherwise your wouldn’t have done it. It’s wonderful that you have become such a considerate and conscientious person, but please stop torturing yourself.