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  • Whenever I see a homeless person I give them a lot of money

  • I don’t say no, I say yes and put my discomfort for anything aside, other people’s wants are more important than my feelings

  • I’m very agreeable

  • I do odd jobs for people, even those who don’t like me, and even if I’m exhausted

  • I feel really guilty if I mess up even slightly on something and I’ll apologise and let them know I am sorry for messing up

  • Constantly battling my instincts and my entire personality feels like it’s being filtered

I still feel bad and like it’s all not enough. It’s as if something’s missing, but I don’t know what that something is. Is this normal? Sometimes I think “fuck it, I’m bad, probably was born bad, why don’t I do other bad things as well since that’s what everyone expects of me now” but I push those intrusive thoughts aside.

  • Grass@sh.itjust.works
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    10 hours ago

    oh man. the number of things I remember like I just did them. things I’ve even been foriven for by the affected person. I’d tell you to try not to worry about it but I can’t even do that myself.

    If nothing else I think its normal enough. Try not to do things while exhausted though, that can be dangerous. Safety first, and second.