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• Whenever I see a homeless person I give them a lot of money

• I don’t say no, I say yes and put my discomfort for anything aside, other people’s wants are more important than my feelings

• I’m very agreeable

• I do odd jobs for people, even those who don’t like me, and even if I’m exhausted

• I feel really guilty if I mess up even slightly on something and I’ll apologise and let them know I am sorry for messing up

• Constantly battling my instincts and my entire personality feels like it’s being filtered

I still feel bad and like it’s all not enough. It’s as if something’s missing, but I don’t know what that something is. Is this normal? Sometimes I think “fuck it, I’m bad, probably was born bad, why don’t I do other bad things as well since that’s what everyone expects of me now” but I push those intrusive thoughts aside.