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  • Whenever I see a homeless person I give them a lot of money

  • I don’t say no, I say yes and put my discomfort for anything aside, other people’s wants are more important than my feelings

  • I’m very agreeable

  • I do odd jobs for people, even those who don’t like me, and even if I’m exhausted

  • I feel really guilty if I mess up even slightly on something and I’ll apologise and let them know I am sorry for messing up

  • Constantly battling my instincts and my entire personality feels like it’s being filtered

I still feel bad and like it’s all not enough. It’s as if something’s missing, but I don’t know what that something is. Is this normal? Sometimes I think “fuck it, I’m bad, probably was born bad, why don’t I do other bad things as well since that’s what everyone expects of me now” but I push those intrusive thoughts aside.

  • WeirdGoesPro@lemmy.dbzer0.com
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    7 hours ago

    Not gonna sugar coat it, you need therapy, bad. Punishing yourself for something that happened when you were 6 is not normal or healthy. You wouldn’t punish another 6 year old today like that, so why do it to your inner child?

    I wish you the best and hope you find peace, but get off the internet and go to a professional as soon as possible.