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Whenever I see a homeless person I give them a lot of money
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I don’t say no, I say yes and put my discomfort for anything aside, other people’s wants are more important than my feelings
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I’m very agreeable
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I do odd jobs for people, even those who don’t like me, and even if I’m exhausted
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I feel really guilty if I mess up even slightly on something and I’ll apologise and let them know I am sorry for messing up
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Constantly battling my instincts and my entire personality feels like it’s being filtered
I still feel bad and like it’s all not enough. It’s as if something’s missing, but I don’t know what that something is. Is this normal? Sometimes I think “fuck it, I’m bad, probably was born bad, why don’t I do other bad things as well since that’s what everyone expects of me now” but I push those intrusive thoughts aside.
At 6 years old, you hardly understand how the world works. People generally realize that and act accordingly.
If anyone is getting divorced from something a 6-year-old did, either your parents don’t understand that (not your fault) or there was something much bigger going on already (not your fault) and whatever you did was the straw that broke the camel’s back (still not your fault, given the grace needed with a SIX-YEAR-OLD!)
If someone else said to you what you were saying to us, would you agree that “yeah, you must have been ‘born bad’* - that sucks”? And hold them to that same standard? Probably not. Don’t do it to yourself
* that’s not a thing, by the way